am kreuz

tonight i swam to the far side of the lake and spied heaven in all its naivety. my torchlight only shone my reflection in mirrored detail, blinding in the revelation. i call melodic words, but anything i scream will be swallowed by this water, this darkness; consumed by the lack of knowledge or understanding, of how to live and be alive, how to existence and thrive. on occasions i look for help on the other side, but the lights of your self assured superiority shy me away. i’ll flock to the darkness, undefined like a bird and hide in the nest of what i do know and understand, for that keeps me comfort as i lay here tonight. like a lullaby in the soundless night, i’m kept warm by the boundaries of my knowledge. for the world is hollow and the sky is infinite; and i am miniscule and insignificant. such wandering thoughts keep me awake at night.