i think i've forgotten the art of sleep

else i just can't wake up

君がこの世に生まれた～奇跡を信じれないという

everything finally feels like its falling into place, but the pieces aren't exactly where i thought they'd fall.

もう決めたもん 俺とお前50になっても同じベッドで寝るの
手と手合わせてたら血も繋がって 一生離れなくなったりして
こんな夢を いつまでも見よう 醒めなければいいってことにしとこう
醒めるから夢と呼ぶんでしょう?って言うなら 他に名前つけよう

paintings

so life is spinning so out of control and everyone that i thought i could count on isn't there anymore and there's so many new people that i probably could count on but i'm not sure if i want to or hold onto things that i'm losing or just plunge headfirst into the future without looking back. but i'm becoming somewhat conflict-averse to the point where nothing is what it used to be and the way i react to situations is nothing like it used to be so i guess in conclusion i'm not the same person i used to be, and evidently no one else is either. i didn't particularly want to lose sight of what i used to be, but others seem to be more keen to paint themselves in completely different colours and lights. but i knew you when you were shadows.