unlearn

copied shamelessly from a blog i stumbled upon;
When I was 5 years old, my mum told me happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down "happy". They told me I didn't understand the assignment and I told them they didn't understand life.
this rings so incredibly true.

and most of the people that i've experienced so much with this whole year, have completely disappeared from my life. at first i thought it was my own choice to isolate myself; but even now when i try to converse, to catch up, they all ignore or make excuses. i don't like this at all. i want them back.
somehow i'm lacking in true friends. most seem to let me down when i need someone there; disappear when i need to depend on anyone. i guess it's inevitable, this overbearing loneliness. but strangely enough, the impact hasn't hit yet. the notion of staying home with my thoughts on a saturday night isn't that dark a prospect at the moment.
it takes time, i guess.