paintings

so life is spinning so out of control and everyone that i thought i could count on isn't there anymore and there's so many new people that i probably could count on but i'm not sure if i want to or hold onto things that i'm losing or just plunge headfirst into the future without looking back. but i'm becoming somewhat conflict-averse to the point where nothing is what it used to be and the way i react to situations is nothing like it used to be so i guess in conclusion i'm not the same person i used to be, and evidently no one else is either. i didn't particularly want to lose sight of what i used to be, but others seem to be more keen to paint themselves in completely different colours and lights. but i knew you when you were shadows.