the cracks in the sky aren't getting any smaller.


my past seems to be drifting away with the breeze, spring is lighting up the sky and yet all i have right now is the ground beneath me to keep my balance. i just feel like, with the isolation of exams and the looming end of schooling, everyone else is fading to nothing more than memories. i've drifted so much from everyone somehow, at school everyone feels like strangers. even my closest friends are transforming before my eyes, into people i barely recognise. i could blame it on change, on age, on strees, but i think i'll just blame it on me. i've somehow become incapable of maintaining relationships and finishing sentences. everything trails off like my thoughts, an unfinished idea. drifting away with all notions of who people used to be and who i can count on in this mass of nothing. its somewhat lonely, so i bury myself in schoolwork until it becomes dark. and then i wait, wait for the sun to come up so i can do it all again, couting down the days until i can get the fuck out. one day out of hundreds. a night, a week, history.